Thursday, 29 March 2012

An exhausting week... & those new book nerves...

I'm worn out!  In fact, I'm so worn out that if Bradley Cooper was to knock on my door right now and told me that Ryan Gosling was waiting in the car and the pair of them wanted to whisk me away for a fortnight in Fuengirola I'd have to tell him that I didn't have the energy to pop over to the Co-op for a pint of soya milk never mind pack a bag and wax me legs for a two week holiday with a couple of movie stars!

It's no good calling me, Bradley, I'm just too tired!
It's just been one of those exhausting weeks, and I don't know why, I mean, it's not as if I've been doing anything overly physical, is it?  I sit at a bloody desk all day and bang away at a keyboard, but for some reason, I'm just done in this week!  I suppose the weather has a lot to do with it.  At the minute, the UK is having freakishly good weather for the time of year.  It's really quite weird having shorts and T-shirt weather when there aren't any leaves on the trees yet but I really wasn't prepared for the heat to hit us so soon.  And for some reason, the heat can make you feel quite lethargic at times - or am I just a lazy cow?  Whatever, it's not a real problem, is it?  Already the weather men/women are banging on about a change coming and cooler weather returning and, to be honest, knowing this country, it's hard to say whether or not we'll ever see the sun again now.  Its visits to our little island are erratic at the best at times!

Another reason I could be exhausted is the fact it takes me days to get over a night out these days - and, blimey, doesn't that show me age!  But seeing Joe Bonamassa last Sunday was a fabulous but knackering experience.  And I still blame those hard, plastic chairs in Newcastle Arena, personally, because I wasn't half as shattered after I saw him at Newcastle City Hall, with their lovely, comfortable soft chairs with arm rests...

But the main reason why I think I'm a little tired this week is because I've just finished the first draft of my new book - the cruise-themed rom com Bon Voyage!  So we're talking mental exhaustion, really, mixed with relief, happiness, and nerves.  Yes, nerves.  New book nerves, and I'm sure other writers will know what I mean when I say this.  The book is finished, the cover is getting sorted, I'm reading it all back through and I'm happy with it - I'm more than happy with it, but I'm a writer, and it doesn't really matter a jot what I think in the grand scheme of things.  I could think it's a bloody masterpiece (it isn't - but it's a pretty good comedy romance!) but if readers don't think it's any good then it just isn't going to work, is it?  So, that's where new book nerves come into play.  When every doubt you have comes crashing to the forefront of your mind and you start questioning everything - is the story good enough?  Am I a good enough writer?  Are the characters interesting enough to draw people in?  But, surely, if I'm asking myself those questions then that's a good thing, isn't it?  Because it means I want to make sure that everything is as good as it can be before I put that book out there.  Blimey! This blog post is turning into a self-therapy session, isn't it?

Anyway, I'm nervous - end of story.  Nervous of putting a brand new book out there, nervous of how it will be perceived, worried that no-one will buy it/like it; all the obvious worries that (I hope!) other writers - and especially indie writers - can identify with.  And I'm especially worried - or should that read, daunted by - the thought of all the upcoming marketing and promotion that has to be done.  But on the other hand, I'm excited.  Excited because I'm proud of the story, I love my characters, and I think it's a book that works.  I'm not going to pretend that I've written some deep and meaningful work of literature because I haven't.  That isn't what I do.  I deal in escapsim, pure and simple.  I write books for the beach, light reads that are great for holidays but work just as well if you just need a bit of time out from the real world for a few hours.  So, I'll keep my fingers crossed that when Bon Voyage! is released people will give it a go, read it for what it is - romantic comedy, a light-hearted piece of British chick lit - and enjoy it.

And, once this latest book is released, as well as all the promotion and marketing that has to be done, I'm also due to start another book that I'm aiming to release around Christmas - another romantic comedy, set in Lapland... So many books to write, and not enough hours in the day...

Bon Voyage! is, hopefully, due for a May/early June release, but if you'd like to read the first few pages of this new book of mine, then you can check them out here Bon Voyage! - sample excerpt.  Now, I'd better get back to the editing/rewriting... after another cup of tea...


4 comments:

  1. Yep yep and yep! Those nerves and worries are the killer. Sometimes I wonder why we do it to ourselves! But we know why. We love to tell a story and there's no stopping us. I wish you all the luck in the world with it. xxx

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  2. Sounds like you have every reason to be worn out! Good luck with the new book X

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